A video I’m which I meet Hannah Hart and make her exclaim “SHUT THE FUCK UP!”
"That’s How I Roll" Dungeons and Dragons Mock-u-mentary
Remember how I said I was in a video where I was a feminist she-bitch?
This is the video.
Also Alejandro is in there too :)
Rat Joke: Tough Rats
I wanted to share this again to cheer myself up in light of Ooska’s death last night. RIP baby girl.
1. There are many, many wonderful women on YouTube who have broad and growing audiences. Here is a long but still incomplete list. (I’d add Grace Helbig, Hannah Hart, Natalie Tran, and Mamrie Hart, but there are lots.)
2. When women start to build an audience on YouTube, they are far, far more likely than men to be subjected to threats, harassment intimidation, and abuse. This has driven many women content creators whose work I love—especially LGBT women and/or women of color—away from YouTube. As a successful female YouTube partner said to me today, “Every time someone tweets a video of mine, I’m simultaneously grateful and really anxious, because I’m afraid of threats.” That’s a barrier to growing your audience, and it’s one created entirely by patriarchy.
3. Claims that the Top 500 Most Viewed YouTubers are >90% male simply because guys work harder at YouTube or make better videos are just blatantly ridiculous. Like, that’s just not a well reasoned conclusion.
Just a sample of the things I have received, and as much as I hate to admit, it has affected me.
This doesn’t count the death or rape threats or demands for my suicide I have received either. I systematically blocked those people and deleted those comments because my family and friends watch my videos and I didn’t want them to see that.
I have filmed probably 4 videos within the last year that I ended up not putting online because I would get anxiety editing, and think, this shot is awful, this isn’t even funny, why did I twist my head that way I look ugly, they are going to fat shame me. *delete*
On the other hand some faith in humanity has been restored since there have been a lot of strangers who have given me constructive criticism, fought back on some of the vicious comments (not just for me but for the sake of human decency), and have email me messages of encouragement.
I was just starting to get a lot of viewers, I even got spotlighted. I was trying to branch out on different video ideas and get back to my roots of film making, but a mix of this and real life and equipment falling apart have deterred me.
But I have plans.
This is my “I want to make a youtube video but I don’t know what to make and no one likes my videos any way” face.
Some days, I fantasize about pushing my car into the Bay when it refuses to behave. It’s behaving now.
A picture from the stop motion I made! …I’ll finish it eventually.
So it’s post pictures of our selves day? Kay. Me, just chillin in my kitchen. Why are you looking at me like that?
Guys, if you have a chance I would appreciate if you read this. I’ve lost over 25 subscribers in a matter of days (Might be a small number to ya, but I started with over 200 subs!), this might be why. After reading this and doing some research, this is really unfair for all of the hard working YouTubers out there. Some have lost over 20,000 subs!!! Even my personal subscription list dropped by 10, and I never unsubbed any of those channels!!! Please spread the word. Thank you. -Amy